Clouds Without Water: I. The Augur
            
            Aleister Crowley
            I
The Augur
            I
            | Look! Look! upon the tripod through the smokeOf slain things kindled, and fine frankincense.
 Look— deep beyond the phantoms these evoke
 Are sightless halls where spirit stifles sense.
 There do I open the old book of FateWherein They pictured my delight and me
 Flushed with the dawn of rapture laureate
 And leaping with the laughter of ecstasy.
 Mine eyes grow aged with that hieroglyphOf doom that I have sought: the fatal end.
 That which is written is written, even if
 Great Zeus himself— great Zeus!— were to befriend.
 Even in the spring of the first floral kiss:“No happy end the gods have given for this.”
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II
            | Save death alone! I see no happy end,No happy end for this divine beginning.
 Child! let us front a fate too ill to mend,
 Take joy in suffering for the sake of sinning.
 Ay! from your lips I pluck the purple seedOf that pomegranate sleek Persephone
 Tasted in hell; the irrevocable deed
 I do, and it is done. Naught else could be
 For us, the chosen of so severe a godTo act so high a tragedy, the elect
 To suffer so, and so rejoice, the rod
 And scourge of our own shame, the gilt and decked
 Oxen that go to our own sacrificeAt our own consecrated shrine of vice.
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III
            | Over the desert ocean of distressWe reach pale eager hands that quiver and bleed
 With life of these our hearts that surge and stress
 In agony of the meditated deed.
 For in the little coppice by the gateWherein I drew you shy and sly, and kissed
 Your lips, your hushed “I love you” smooth and straight
 Sweeping to wrap us in the glittering mist
 Of hell that holds us— even there I heardThe lacerating laugh of fate ring out,
 The dog-faced god pronounce the mantic word,
 And saw the avengers gather round about
 Our love. The Moirae neither break nor bend;The Erinyes hunt us to— no happy end.
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IV
            | Our love is like a glittering sabre bloodiedWith lives of men; upsoared the sudden sun;
 The choral heaven woke; the aethyr flooded
 All space with joy that you and I were one.
 But in the dark and splendid dens of deathArose an echo of that jewelled song:
 There swept a savour of polluted breath
 From the lost souls, the unsubstantial throng
 That tasted once a shadow of our gloryAnd turn them in the evil house to adore
 The godhead of our sin, the tragic story
 We have set ourselves to write, the sombre score
 Our daggers carve with poesy sublimeUpon the roof tree of despair and crime!
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V
            | As we read Love and Death in each other’s eyes,We see the cool mild splendour of the dawn
 Damned by some tragic throw of murderous dice
 To slash like lightning over lea and lawn
 Jagged and horrible across the curtainOf heaven, writing ruin, ruin— we see
 Our certain joy marred with a doubly certain
 Soul-shattering anguish.— Bah! To you and me
 Such loathing, such despair are little things.We are afloat on the flood-tide of lust—
 A lust more spiritual than life, that stings
 Till death and hell dissolve i’ the aftergust.
 So? But the Gods avert their faces, bendTheir holy brows, and see— no happy end.
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VI
            | Thus shall men write upon our cenotaphs:“Traitor and lecher! murderess and whore!”
 The rat-faced god that lurks in heaven laughs;
 There is rejoicing on the immortal shore.
 The angels deem us hurled from the above,Burnt out of bliss, blasted from sense and thought,
 Barred from the beauties of celestial love
 And branded with the annihilating Naught.
 O! pallid triumph! empty victory!When we sit smiling on the infernal thrones
 Starred with our utmost gems of infamy,
 Builded with tears, and cushioned with the groans
 Of these the victims of our joys immense—Child! I aspire to that bad eminence!
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VII
            | Hell hath no queen! But, o thou red mouth curvingIn kisses that bring blood, shall I be alone?
 What of the accomplice of these deeds unswerving?
 Will not your dead hot hisses match mine own?
 As here your ardours brand me bone and marrowBiting like fire and poison in my veins,
 Shall you not there still ply your nameless harrow,
 Mingle a cup from those our common pains
 To intoxicate us with an extreme pleasureKeener than life’s, more dolorous than death’s,
 Till these infernal blisses pass the measure
 Of heaven’s imagined by the tremulous breaths
 Of silly saints and silly sinners, swayingFrom scraps of blasphemy to scraps of praying?
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VIII
            | You love me! trite and idle word to darken(With all its glow) the splendour of our sun!
 No soul of heaven or hell may hearken
 The unbearable device that we have done.
 Nor may Justine nor Borgia understandNor Messalina nor Maria guess
 The infernal chorus swelling darkly grand
 That echoed us our everlasting “Yes!”
 Nor shall the Gods perceive to damn or praiseThe deed that shakes their essence into dust,
 Disrupts their dreams, divides their dreary days.
 Supreme, abominable, rides our lust
 Armed in the panoply of brazen youthAnd strength, since, if we are Hell’s, Hell’s worm is Truth.
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IX
            | We are still young enough to take delightIn wickedness for wickedness’ sole sake.
 Eve did not fall because she knew aright
 The fruit an apple, but the snake a snake.
 Nor shall we sink among the foolish throngThat seek an end, but rise among the few
 Who do the strong thing because they are strong
 And care not why they do, so that they do.
 Therefore we wear our dread iniquityEven as an aureole, therefore we attain
 Measureless heights of nameless ecstasy,
 Measureless depths of unimagined pain
 Mingled in one initiating kissThat those dissolve in the athanor of this.
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X
            | We tread on earth in our divine disdainAnd crush its blood out into purple wine,
 Staining our feet with hot and amorous stain,
 The foam involving all the sensual shrine
 Of love whose godhead dwells upon your mouthWherein the kisses clustering overflow
 With brimming ardour of the new sin’s growth
 Till round us all the poisonous blossoms blow,
 And all the cruel things and hideous formsOf night awake and revel in our revel,
 While in us rage the devastating storms
 Whose dam is Luxury and their sire the devil...
 It is well seen, however things intend,The Gods have given for this— no happy end.
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XI
            | Crown me with poppy and hibiscus! crownThese brows with nightshade, monkshood and vervain!
 Let us anoint us with the unguents brown
 That waft our wizard bodies to the plain
 Where in the circle of unholy stonesThe unconsecrated Sabbath is at height;
 Where the grim goat rattling his skulls and bones
 Makes music that dissolves the dusk of night
 Into a ruddy fervour from the abyssSuch as I see (when cunning can surprise
 Our Argus foe and give us leave to kiss)
 Within your deep, your damned, your darling eyes.
 Ay! to the Sabbath where the crowned wormExults, with twisted yard and slime-cold sperm.
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XII
            | There gods descend; there devils rise. We dance,Dance to the madness of the waning moon,
 Write centuries of murder in a glance,
 Chiliads of rape in one unearthly tune.
 There is the sacrament of sin unveiledAnd there the abortion of Demeter eaten,
 The potion of black Dione distilled,
 The measure of Pan by whirling women beaten.
 These are but symbols, and our souls the truth;These sacraments, and we the gods of them;
 The sabbath incense curls to us to soothe
 Our spleen, engarlands us, a diadem
 For that unutterable deed that hurledUs, flaming thunderbolts! against the world.
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XIII
            | There needs not ask the obscure oracleWhereto these dire imaginations tend.
 We read this sigil in the dust of Hell:
 “The Gods have given for this no happy end.”
 What end should we desire, who grasp the gainWe have despoiled from everlasting time,
 Who gather sunshine from the iciest rain
 And turn the dullest prose to rhythm and rime?
 Think you we cannot warm our hands and laughEven at the fire that scatheth adamant?
 Think you we shall not knead the utmost chaff
 Into a bread worth Heaven’s high sacrament
 And from the bitter dregs of Hell’s own wineDistil a liquor utterly divine?
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XIV
            | Behold! I have said. The destiny obscureOf this our deed obscure we shall not skry.
 We know “no happy end!”— but we endure,
 Abiding as the Pole Star in the sky.
 You mix your life in mine— then soul in soulWe shoot forth, meteors, travelling on and on
 Far beyond Space to some dark-glimmering goal
 Where never a sun or star hath risen or shone;
 Where we shall be the evil light beyond time,Beyond space, beyond thought, supreme in deathless pang;
 Nor shall a sound invade that hall of crime,
 Only the champing of the insatiate fang
 Of the undying worm our love, fast wedUnto— no happy end. Behold! I have said.
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Notes
            
                | I. 6. |  | They.— The Fates or
                        Moirae. | 
                | III. 11. |  | The dog-faced god.— Anubis, the
                        Threshold-Guardian of the “Gods” of Egypt. Mantic means
                        prophetic. | 
                | VI. 14. |  | Child.— The unhappy girl was at
                        this time but 17 years old. | 
                | VIII. 5. |  | Justine.— The virtuous but
                        victimized heroine of the infamous novel of the Marquis de Sade. | 
                | XI. 6. |  | Sabbath.— Consult Payne Knight:
                        “Essays on the worship of Priapus”, Eliphas Lévi:
                        “Dogma et rituel de la haute Magie” and others. | 
                | XIII. 12. 13. |  | Sigil.— Sign-manual. |